I am 26 years old. I simply got into sex out of ignorance like
millions of young people today. My addiction placed me as the highest
abortionist in the world at age of 26 and now, I have a sad story to
tell.
Until I found myself in a total mess, I never really had any
Idea what premarital sex was all about. I never knew it was so useless
and killing. Before I got into it, I use to think it was some fun and I
dreamt of it more often than not. I wished with all my heart to have a
boyfriend whom we would explore it together, little did I know that I
was being nasty to myself.
Because of things I see on TV and
magazine, I thought having sex was so much fun, I fantasized about it
each time I felt lonely. Only if I had known that everything I see in
movies and soap operas were just acting and make belief; only if I had
known that there is nothing in sex after all, the only thing in it is
self destruction; I think my life wouldn’t be this miserable.
It’s a pity i
really had to learn the hard way and I really wish I had never been
born, I wish I had not come out into this deceitful world where nobody
cares about young people, all the so called adults do is how they would
play on the intelligence of young people in a bid to exploit and use
them to satisfy their insatiable sexual passion. I really feel bad about
this wicked world.
My plight started when I was sixteen, then I
was still a virgin and in secondary school, I was ignorant of many
things but because I see it every day on the TV and internet. More so, a
couple of so called Anti AIDS people visited us in school a couple of
times for lectures, but all they did was introduce sex to us even more
because they really had nothing but condoms to show.
Fine, they
told us about AIDS, but at the same time, they also told us about
condoms, they never really said anything real about sex, they said we
could contact AIDS not through sex, but unprotected sex, which means
there was nothing wrong with sex as long as you could use condoms, but
all of that I now know very well are lies, and I wonder why men and
women would enjoy telling teenagers deadly lies like that.
Even
though I can’t blame those people totally for my plight because they
weren’t really the ones that said I should go into sex, I still never
forgive them for encouraging me and other young people like me into sex
with their preaching of protected sex or condom. Even though I wanted to
see what sex was really like and I fantasized about it, some were
within me, I was still very scared of what may happen to me afterwards
if l tried it, and it was that fear that actually kept me away from it
until I was sixteen.
By the time I was sixteen, my fantasy had
gotten enough boost to express itself with reliance to said to myself
one day, “free yourself baby girl, there is nothing terrible in sex,
can’t you see everyone is doing it, by the way, you can always use
condoms nothing will happen”. So, I finally decided to let go of my
fears and embrace in totality my silly fantasies, and that was how I
took the very first step into this miserable life of illicit sex. I had
absolutely no idea of what I was going into.
I finally agreed to
date this guy who had been disturbing me for more than a year, his name
was Andrew. Andrew was five years older than me. Both of us began
enjoying sex, - we did it every seconds, every minute; -
I became addicted that I do not love doing it with condom anymore.
Within the period, I had 14 abortions for Andrew, and not only that, I
cheated on him in several occasions, I felt doing it with other guys
will give me better sensation but all were the same.
My school
teacher got me and at the end of the day I had 6 abortions for him. And
worst among was my sexual affairs with my close relations, which
resulted to 5 abortions. Then I felt I was at the top of the world. I
will never forgive my friends who introduced me into partying and
sleeping with old men with potbelly and rough skin only in the name of
sex.
Right now, all those men have gone, and then shadow of my
past sexual life still follows me around. All this pills and tablets I
took are now telling on my blood stream. At times I felt like committing
suicide each time I remember what the doctor told me, “Tessy, I am
sorry, your womb is automatically damaged on account of the several
abortion you had”, “I’m sorry, you will never conceive again in your
life, but just thank God, you don’t have HIV or AIDS”.
I
therefore, advise every young girl reading this piece today, to over
look every fantasy towards sex. Sex is good but it has time. And that is
in marriage. Keep yourself away from men. Make friends with those who
mean good for your future.
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